My bear told me to go sleep

But I'm about to end the relationship with my father for the greater good.

You guys followed me for the last two years and as you know, I'm doing amazing. A lot is developed. I'm happy.

But every week I have my dad coming by and he's always disappointed. And that's a problem since, nothing will change because i don't want it to change.

So, my brother that did cut contact with me since my first psychosis what gave me a huge trauma, denies my dad contact with him or his kid. Because my dad stays in contact with me.

Well, i couldn't care less. Really. How is that my fault. But anyway, my dad is really my biggest problem in my life. It's terrible.

He dropped me on the streets a few years ago. With a true psychosis, completely helpless, unable to help myself in anyway. If that would happen to me today, i would literally give zero fucks and survive on easy mode. Seriously, no fucks given. But back then - it was sick. I did do nothing wrong.

Details do not matter, but I will never forgive the man and he is here everytime doing dishes, the garden, whatever he is annoyed with. And that's kinda everything in my life. I live alone and use every day the same two dishes so what the fuck is he always complaining about. I think the guy has autism and some neurotic issue.

But ok. He does not make me happy. I lead my awesome life with you guys, my bear and let's not forget about @niggel. Socially, i'm just full and on top of that, I do not make him happy either. And since I can't forgive him (he deserves to be forgiven, i think, but just can't) there is no reason to keep him around.

Tomorrow when i wake up, I will promise cancer, violence and change my phone number. It worked for my brother you know, just blocking someone. Ghosting it's called. Like a little bitch. That hurts.

My brother's behavior towards my father and me is btw literally psychopathy. Psychopathy has a complete different definition than everyone things. But I will never acknowledge any psychological diagnosis to me or to others. It's fraud.

I am not asking for advice, I am not asking for attention either. I am actually in a good mood and sharp as a katana. Like fucking always right? I'm the most stable 'bipolar' person ever lived and i can proof it even with 1500 documents about me. Who can say that? Only me. Still they TRIED to fuck me over. I told them, it's illegal. I have a letter here. Declined. Illegal. But they tried, y'know. They want to prevent problems and my mental health doesn't matter at all.

I just wanted to share with people that I really trust. Because, we are working for the best business in the world. There is no business where everyone is so well threated, so equal, so international, well paid and I could go on. I have litterally never met a bad / evil programmer. It's the rationality, the reasoning.

Yeah, when I start to type much it's time for some serious spokinoy nochi.

Have a good sleep. Or even better, try https://pravda.education because that the reason you will lose your job! Don't worry, I promise you, living on government money of 70% of a developer salary is ten times better than working as a developer. Pinky swear. Happy for two years and counting.

And i have the feeling the future will be amazing. Love is in the air and stuff.

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