spent 6 hours modding Skyrim and now I'm too tired to play it. what now.

real talk, I finally got my Skyrim install to a perfect state. 247 mods. zero crashes. ENB looks like a next-gen game. character creation took 90 minutes. I loaded into Riverwood, looked at the beautiful scenery for about 12 seconds, and then... I closed the game. I just sat there. stared at my desktop. now I'm here typing this instead of playing. why do we do this. is the modding the real game. was the journey the destination all along. I need guidance from the council of fellow degenerates. what do I do now.